Phillipians 4:6

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. - Phillipians 4:6


This evening, I did something very unbiblical - i was anxious.  I don't mean I was worried about something in my head.  I mean I was hiding in the center room of my house, on the phone with my mother-in-law, with a golf club in my hands.  Why?  It was closer than the knives in the kitchen.  Oh, why was I doing that?  Because Goofy Richard was knocking on my door - for 15 minutes.  The dogs were going crazy and probably would have come through the metal front door if they could have.  I just let them keep barking and growling while I was shaking and whispering on the phone (so he didn't hear me).  This has gotten out of control.  He finally went away, only for me to realize that I had a bunch of stuff in the truck I needed to bring in.  I finally called my neighbor to walk out with me.  I then informed every neighbor I know that he has been told not to come here, and if they see him he needs to leave.  It's pretty sad when I spend a Friday evening in the central room of my home because I don't want to be seen through the windows (even though they have curtains, you can still see shadows and movement).  How did feeding people for Thanksgiving turn into being terrified to be alone in my own home?  The bad thing is - I almost feel guilty.  I was called to feed hungry people and he's hungry!  So, what do I do with that?  Next time he comes and I'm alone, I'm calling the police, no questions asked.  But it's pretty sad it's come to this!  How did my "calling" become so dangerous?  Am I a horrible Christian for being afraid - should I be confident that the Lord will protect me?